This is yet another k-pop dedicated post so if y'all can't stand (crazy)fangirls then I would suggest not reading it.

I was just reminiscing the past, watching videos about HanChul's (heechul/hangeng) friendship. And then I just got so overwhelmed that I started crying. Just kept thinking whether all this time after he left, did he ever contacted any of them? If he didn't I totally understand, he feels guilty for leaving, w/o even telling them, they probably had a lot of resentment towards him.

But for heechul I guess the hurt's a whole lot more. But of course as a friend you wouldn't want him to suffer in silence right (put yourself in his shoes), but to let him leave, and carve his own career, as a solo artist, elsewhere.

I sometimes can't help but to regret my decision of supporting Geng leaving/sueing his company. because I really, really don't want him to leave. But we all know it's for his best, if the company still refuses to give him what he needs (rest, breaks, what he rightfully deserves), then we will stand up for him. And I know it's really selfish of me now, to want him to return to Super Junior, but things are never going to be the same...

Geng promised that if given the opportunity he'll stand up there and perform with them again, I'll be waiting for that day to arrive, no matter how long it takes. Because w/o the 13 of them, the stage will never be complete.

Pple around me just keep asking why am I so obsessed with kpop to a such a state where I cry over stories like these, but I would just say,

If you're not a fan, you'll never understand.

Now, I never waste time explaining to them because no matter how much I say, it's never gonna get to them (not being offensive but it's true).

If you read through this post, you must be a fellow fan like me, I say, let's stick it out till the end :)